To my Goddess, with Love – re-share for Beltaine

~ ‘Beltaine’ – digital mixed media collage, done by me Mirjana M. , April 2019 ~

To my Goddess, with Love

I have knelt before the queen.

Unworthy of her flower

and her sin-washing dew.

With my head bowed

the plague spilled out of me.

I have taken in your offering,

my Celestial Mother,

hands ribboned, gifted outward,

I have consumed your omen.

I choked on your promise

and I vomited your words

into the hollow shell of my heart.

I believed,

when your epiphany reeked of delusion,

when I could no longer see

the pleasure that I sought

inside the pain you have gifted me.

I carried your burden on my sleeve,

like a medal, like a scale,

like a pedestal.

You would arise from the foam

in the early hours of the morning,

your dress a labyrinth of beauty,

unstained white

and you would be the static noise,

the lullaby of innocence,

the humming of the breeze

as I was fleeing so desperately

into sleep’s false comfort.

I have bled in your name and mine

entwined and gracefully,

I let you break me

and reassemble me into carnations

decorating dining tables,

perma red,

unguarded, fragile, vein.

I have knelt before you,

the splendor of Beltaine

coursing through my hair

like a wild stag;

and I have kissed your lilac beds

awaiting execution,

you disarmed me.

Poisonless,

darkness devoid,

I am white

as the cloud of your bosom.

What more do you want from me?

*you can find this poem in my first poetry collection “Colour Me In Cyanide & Cherries” It is also one of the first poems I shared when starting this writing space, almost a decade ago. The artwork and the words were inspired by Spring and Beltaine, which is my favourite holiday of the season.

Thank you for reading ❤