Who am I?

Yes, this is just another page that is supposed to help you get to know me, but truth be told the best way you could get to know me is to meet me in person. This is a little dream I have ever since I first started blogging, which was in 2005, and my dream was to meet all the wonderful people , knowledgeable people, loving and caring people that became my friends, my followers or just silent bystanders. I imagine us all on a big green field filled with wild flowers, enjoying tea, coffee , cupcakes and milkshakes and just breathing, everyone among fellow poets, fellow photographers, fellow parents, fellow survivors, fellow beings.

If you read through the first paragraph, you allready know two most important things about me:

I am a Dreamer. I will storm into your life , I will enter your head and everything will feel like in the poem of W.B. Yeats.

I am  Crazy. If I want something I go and get it, not matter what it is. If you want something, I will go and get it for you or we will do it together, no matter where or what it is. I will not let you deny me. If you tell me your wish, I will perhaps not be able to move mountains, river beds or fly great distances. But you will see me try to my fullest.

I feel misplaced, I deeply feel I belong somewhere in the middle ages. I want to be a bard. I am awaiting the arrival of a guitar, so I can start making music. It will not be good music, mind you, but it will be honest. Since this will all probably fail, seeing , in my ex husband’s words, my sense of music is completely illogical, forbidden and nonexistent, I plan on becoming a chef. I plan to cook. I plan to peel potatoes. Peeling potatoes calms me down,when during a day I can no longer stay ambivalent about the ugly buzz of everyday life, when I will either cry from everybody’s pain mixed with my own or I will peel. And cook. And write poetry. I will bake pies and I will pass them out on the streets and everybody will look at me like I am a lunatic.

Music is a great muse of inspiration for me. My favourite bands are Tool, A Perfect Circle, Puscifer (Yeah, I should’ve just said “Anything Maynard”), Acid Bath, Katatonia,Opeth,Anathema, Shinedown, Soundgarden, Cult of Luna, Sonata Arctica, Marilyin Manson,Porcupine Tree, Mars Volta and many more, including classical music.

I read. A LOT! I enjoy reading, giving feedback and discussing what I read. My favourite books are The Discworld Series, not just because I think they are ingenious, but because my resemblance to Granny Weatherwax is astounding. I feel as tho the character was written after me.

I was born with Sun blessed hair. When I turned 15, my hair was almost completely gray, and I mean ash gray. I died it to coral red, fell in love with myself like nowhere before and it is something I will keep doing untill I am no longer here. I play video games for as long as I can remember and it is a part of my life where I take great enjoyement. My other interests are collecting stuff, stamps, envelops, postcards, colorfull napkins and many other things, like icecream wrappers. I live in Belgrade, in which I am aswell eternaly in love. I name almost every item I own. My washing machine’s name is Margaret, my Ipods name is Carlos, my stuffed animal collection is regarded as live beings and I often give voice, story, poems and lullabies to all of them.

If there is anything you’d like to know or are curious about , ask! Lets be friends!

*You are now entering an updated section, which won’t be much, but bare with me*

I am twenty and a seven years old now. There is not much to say, or any point in talking about the changes. All I know is that I got to learn that there is wonderful people around me who, at least when around me, reflect my soul. They are kind, compassionate, brave, fucked up, weirdos, lovely freaks. They are the best and they make me feel like I shouldn’t join any clubs having the name of my current age, just so I could perhaps give them back the trust, the chance of joy they give to me. They are my guild, they are my family and I love them all to death