in all honesty, if you ask me, I have nothing nice to say
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in all honesty, if you ask me, I have nothing nice to say
so I learned to stay silent,
and the stardust that I ground up
into make belief
gently helped my mouth stay shut
we like to attach certain things
to where we grew up,
our childhoods
and who raised us and how;
i am a machine.
When I speak I entice
violence,
I thinks deities are
simple-minded,
funny dressing charlatans –
i wont spill from their guts
I am orphaned
to anyone who fathered me,
everything
that leaves me bruises
is my mother;
there is no third side to look at,
no fading lights
in a rear-view window;
northern lights
are chemicals
of deviated humanity –
not Sidhe;
I am the deer in the headlights,
never the driver –
I don’t ever want to own a car
because I don’t know how to stop driving,
you don’t want me to teach you
any traffic laws
or geography
but I will still stand before you
with the audacity
of a sky to be all fluff and pink
an armada of whims and dreams
amid the fjords of a December
and I will still try
to lie.
But somehow I still dread
of even thinking
about telling you
that the world is simply
shit.
If ever there was a perfect poem for 2020, Oloriel, this is it… It has been a while since I’ve read one of your poems. As beautiful as ever.
Thank you very much for your kind words, Sahm, wish we both felt about 2020 as some other, prettier poem. Stay safe.
Ahh! Big love. Felt every word.
Thank you, big love back! And also, on each and every excursion of mine through reading in these parts, i always assumed you were not writing – only to now discover that for some reason and somehow, I am not following you (and i am beyond a shadow of a doubt sure i was, because i remember all the posts of yours i used to read!), so am correcting it 🙂
Hej hoj, Oloriel, so good to see you here! Congratulations for being featured, yeahh! Yesterday as I was reading your poems, I noticed that you had used the word “liminal” in a poem before. You’re an expert!
Ahh, I’m happy that you remember your visits. I did start a new blog but not since last April. Make sure you find the follow button this time!